Constant battles within my mind

Everyday I come from office thinking that I would study for FRM. But after having dinner while watching Simpsons, that feeling goes away. I am also confused about postponing my exam to May next year. It is going to cost me $400 and a chance to be an FRM in one shot as the exam is going to be held in two levels. I have to have a strong state of mind to go through this. "It is just a matter of few months." - thats what I tell myself every day. A few months.. this is more than I can give. I am kind of feeling exhausted. But, somehow I have to gain the momentum(or rather start it) or else I have to forfeit the game.